Ultimate me
Recently, my mind has been plagued by constant thoughts regarding who might I be, and who do I want to become.
To excersize these thoughts, I thought it might benefit me to brainstorm possible answers.
I think I want to stay as strong and willpowered as I am now. I keep being the type of person who never gives up when life knocks them down, no matter how hard the things I might face be, I shall keep striding forward.
I seek freedom. Why of course, it is what I am currently missing in my life. I feel as if I had lost control, the little that I had over life and now it's doing its own thing.
I've been realizing, or at least, its been becoming clearer just how much I seek outside validation and approval, and how I constantly feel looked down at and criticized. This must be because of my past, but for the future, I would really like to move past this.
I want to be able to be independent, and understand things that confuse me. This grown up world I'm in the stage of entering rapidly, its close approach terrifies me. I want to not be scared of what life may put in front of me.
I want to understand, and tell myself how im always happy. All other moments are only temporary. Its okay to feel sad, but it wont last forever.
Aside from these heavy things, theres some lighter accomplishments I want to make.
Like how I would like to work out, get more tattoos, express myself with my fashion style more, learn a language or even two (really, might wanna learn german finally... or russian too, for my girlfriend who speaks it).
Maybe ill get there. Although I feel as long as I am here physically right now, Ill stay being prevented from it.
Ill just have to live and see