The pain of holding back on creating
It doesn't happen to me often- where I feel a burning urge inside of me to just create. Recently, I've had these very urges to do things such as designing and coding my own website (which I'm in the process of doing), do graffiti, draw, sew, design, and so on.
Despite this urge, I simply lack the ability to actually succumb to these urges. I am in college, where for the past year I feel as if I was put there to just suffer. I do work that does not interest me, and honestly, I feel like it really put me off from enjoying designing, or ruined the passion I had for it prior.
Being held back from creating has been really painful. Like, I also really wanna design proper stuff... but in college, they're forcing me to do stuff that is irrelevant for my work. I DO want to do more work for other things, and to become a good designer, but I just don't have the space for it.
I don't know what to do about this all. I guess I will stay forcing myself to finish college. Just a few more months of suffering, I guess..